The Ripple Effect - Jay Horita
Jul. 9th, 2007
01:26 pm - The Ripple Effect
Each year in my adventure through life, I stumble on an average of two guys I'm interested in enough to be a hopeless romantic. Normally, I'm forgetful, quiet, and safe, but when these guys come along, they throw some stones into the placid waters and I become a rippling mess of highs and lows. My whole thought process turns to them, and I remember even the smallest details about them without struggle. I talk more fluidly and, if it reaches a certain level, I feel invincible enough to take risks.
But it seems every time I get to the peak, the ultimate force of reality takes control and I get pulled down to even below the baseline. Circumstance, timing, and other external forces all contribute to this reality, causing me to feel depression or this sort of yearning.
As time moves forward, the ripple goes through this rebounding cycle that diminishes in amplitude with every cycle. Eventually, it recedes into infinity, but even though the most obvious reprecussions vanish, there still are small vibrations that will exist for long time after.
I was at the apex this weekend. Even though I knew the rebound was inevitably going to come as a result of the temporality of this guy's position, it still hit me hard because I was just too late. :(